The Millennial Strategist Shares Her Testimony!
He Did It For Me, He'll Do It For You!
Years ago, I was an alcoholic. That season in my life prepared me for this moment to write an inspirational message to those of you who are in need.
I grew up in Raleigh, NC, and attended South Central church of Christ, formerly known as Rochester Heights, where my dad pastors. I was a part of the youth programs, Bible bowls, field trips, “Rights’ of Passage” program and so forth. I learned who God was on a higher level than, “God’s going to get you for sinning,” or “If you have sex you’re going to hell.” I was taught how sin could affect me mentally, spiritually, and physically, which is why I had such a hard time living in myself when I strayed away from God. It’s easy when you are given God in a shallow sense, but I was prepared.
Going into college I was a virgin and still preaching for the Lord. But my life started to change because I wasn’t continuing my own education of God. I slowly but surely thought I was “good” in my Christianity and could rest on my Biblical knowledge of teenager, when I should’ve been graduating my level.
I started dating a guy around the age of 21 and months later I broke my vow to God. I made a vow to God, when I was younger, that I wouldn’t have sex until I got married. I got to my early twenties and dropped the ball. Months after I started to fully feel the repercussion of my actions and turned to alcohol. After having a few drinks on a Saturday night and partying the night away, it became my haven. Alcohol was no longer a distant land of blue clear skies with water to reflect its glory, but a safe house to deflect my shame and guilt
God doesn’t condemn us, but I didn’t fully believe those scriptures. John 3:17 states, “For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” It was my first trial and it was a heavy load. Once I sinned, even with all my teaching, I didn’t know how to reel myself back to God. My thoughts consumed me in every way. Most of those were planted by Satan and I watered them. I watered them with alcohol until there was barely water in me to breathe.
I partied hard, drank hard, and sexed hard. I thought if I was in this deep, I might as well go all the way in sin. If I was changing, I might as well change for evil. But I still found myself at church on Sunday mornings hoping to hear a word from God that would stop me in my tracks. After every sermon I would tell God I’m not drinking anymore. After a night of throwing up I would ask God to save me, so I could see better days. I wanted to do better, but I never submitted to God’s will long enough before I poured one more drink.
After drinking for years, I found myself drinking every single day. I wasn’t just drinking socially, now I was drinking when no one was around. Just me and my bottle. It was so bright that it lit up my room, until the bottle was empty, as I was empty, or so I thought. Ironically, every time I got myself in a bind the Holy Spirt must have cried out for itself because God would save me at every point of my prodigal days. I still remember getting drunk at a friend’s house, heading to Durham to party, forgetting where I was going, then getting on the highway to head back home. As I started to take that 40-minute ride back home I blacked out. I don’t remember the highway at all. Then I remember placing my key in the door to get into my house. That was God that saved me and the people around me. God knew that I would come back to him since He had already been in my future. He always implored His angels to assist me in my misery, so I could tell His story of how I got through the storm.
I remember getting pulled over by a cop while walking on a road in Chapel Hill. I was trying to get back to my car which was 25 minutes away at three in the morning. Unknown to me, but very visible to the cop, was a girl with her shirt inside out, throw up on her boots and hair in disarray. God sent Him to me to get me off the street so nobody could harm me. I don’t remember the full exchange, but I got in the front seat and we drove to the police station where I slept until my sister came to pick me up. While I laughed and joked about the experience to my friends that night at my birthday dinner, my soul was dying.
One night I called my dad to tell him I wasn’t where I wanted to be in life after drinking two bottles. The Holy Spirit told me to call my dad. I didn’t understand why, but I knew I had to be obedient. That night stopped me from drinking daily. Although it still took me years to fully recover, I was on the road to redemption.
Years down the line I dated a guy that I thought I’d marry. I knew it was time to get my life together. Our relationship lasted a year, but it had a major impact on me. He was my first love. I knew I had to start changing, but at the time He didn’t. He signed up for the rowdy drinking Kendra, not the one ready to fully submit to God. So, we broke up and it took me months to get over it. I prayed to God to help me get through that time period without drinking heavily. I prayed that God would take the love for alcohol away from me. I prayed to God for full deliverance and healing and I meant every word.
I started to study the Bible, work on different ministries at church, and writing. I was well on my way to live a life for Christ. About a year of devoting myself to God, I was confronted with alcohol and I was instantly disgusted by its smell. I couldn’t believe it. God healed me! Hallelujah! God took the love I had for alcohol away. I was so grateful that day. I knew God could do anything in my life. That’s why I lead a bold life in Christ because I know the Holy Spirit is God in me.
What sins are you holding on to? Don’t you know the minute you asked for forgiveness God said it is done. Why don’t we believe God at His word? Don’t hide in your shame and guilt. Give you cares to God. Humble yourself and see what He will do. He will save you! He has to because He’s God. And when He saves you, tell your story of His saving power. Give your life to God today because TOMORROW IS TOO LATE TO BE GREAT.